Went interviews, hope that I’m short listed.
Hmm.. When century to look for Lynn,
asked her to change for me my watch battery lol, you see is free! Ha.
When bugis to find ah nei to give him a little surprise,
had our dinner together.. Ha..
saw james but I act as if I donno know him, kaos
why should I talk a person who own me money and
still have money to go drink and play arcade lol.

NNCB, CCB!! BOOLDY CB! FUCK YOUR YOURSELF WITH BITCH MAN!! YOU THIS FUCKING BASTARD PLEASE GET OUT OF MY SIGN! HAS BEEN TAKING ALL YOUR FICKING RUSHISB SINCE YOUNG, YOU’RE THE ONE WHO SPOIL THE WHOLE FAMILY. I WANNA MOVE OUT OF THIS FUCKING HOUSE TO SOMEWHERE THERE NO YOU AROUND WITH PEACE. I RATHER YOU HAS BEEN KILLED BY SOMEONE MAN. REALLY LAH FUCK OFF SOON!!

I HATE THIS FAMILY MAN.. I JUST A STRANGER STAYING IN THIS FUCKING HOME. EVERYBODY ARE JUST IN THEIR OWN WHOLE, WHEN THEY NEED YOU THE WILL BE NICE TO YOU. WHEN THEY SEE MONEY THEY WILL JUST SAY IS THEIRS. I NOT GONNA PITY THEM ANYMORE, I DON THINK I OWN THEM ANYTHING ANYWAY.

been staying at his house from sat to tuesday. hmm..
think i'm gonna make a stop now cant keep contiues like this. family keep kaobei-ing..

things don go on our ways. yes! i know.. but is too much already i cant take it anymore. why do i have to follow you guys ways.
i have my own point of view, thinking and ways of doing it. why just cant you guys let me go with it. hais.

had an quarrel with ah nei recently. is really fucking rubbish. I DON THINK IS MY FAULT MAN! just make me cry like hell! what this going on? he's really getting listless recently, stress out.. but i don think i deserve that, throwing anger on me. i have my own problem too. i know what's happening. keep saying i like hack care not worry about whatever thingy. hey! i have problem and stress too but i just don wanna show it out, to give more problems to him. hais.. don feel like talk about it anymore.....

Lazy to updated my blog recently, to many things happen and don feel like updating my blog for some reason.

Been staying at ah nei’s house often recently.. Hmm..

been looking for job for quit sometimes, is really quit hard to find a job as i'm pregant and the location wise then. And the market now is not really that good. hmm. ah nei also resign from his job last friday. actually was promoted to sale rep but then then he think of the pay wise then other issus he don wanna continue work. only can say wasted. now he's trying hard to find a job now. all the best my dear.

Went powerhouse on Wednesday is been quit sometimes since I went down. Ha. Thanks dawn for coming down.. Yeah. The club and people is still the same nothing different since the last time I went. Lol. Quit boring man, maybe due to I’m pregnant unable to drink or dance.. =( Saw quit a few friends then, quit surprise to see ricky lol. Left the club at 2, went hougang 24hr mac to have supper then ah nei sent me back home.

I'M JUST TOO LAZY TO UPLOAD MY BLOG..

BORING.. =(

WILL BE BACK SOON..

That day went KKH to have a checkup, yeah I’m 2 month pregnant.. Ya? Hmm.. Never expect is already that long. Scan through me and ah nei saw the baby into my womb its tiny now and its fine just have to take some medicine. Due date will be on June. Expected will fall on June or July lol. Next appointment 24 Nov. hais.

when polyclinic to day to have a check.. saw linda and xiaogui there lol. had our meal together and a little chat. hmm.. was asked to go KK hospital to do a scanning due to some usual pregancy.. i'm quit worry now. hais.. hope my baby will be fine. =) hope God will protect my baby. really at last got the intend of keeping it, i really don wish to lose it. hais.

dear called me, the first called he told me that he's going to resign from his work due to some reason, and then smsed me did he make the right dicision as i told him is abit rush somehow the managment not well organise and is dragging his time. hmm.. lucky i msg him that. he call me back then told me that he msg his manager that let him think about resigning as actually they wanna promote him. hais..

I LOVE YOU ALWAYS !!!
NO MATTER WILL GO THROUGHT TICK & THIN WITH YOU!

didnt sleep the whole night thinking of msging him this..

I SMS-ED HIM THIS..
dear, recently feel very down, there many things happen recently ba. sometimes when i alone i think alot. what's my plan for the future what am i suppose to do? how am i going to support the family? quit regert that i resign. hm.. just don want to be a burden to you and don want to stress youn out. know it will be very xin ku, trying very hard to a job, keep trying sending out lots of resume todays. hm.. got to work hard, don stress urself and pushing urslv too hard ok. see you lyk that my heart also pain and sour, ur're working so hard and then what about me? what am i dreaming about? idiot me. hais.. ya both of us not in a good mood too ans thinking lots of thing. hais, sorry this days i neglected u alot alot. thanks for give me lots care and concern all this while. love you.

THEN HE REPLIED ME..
yo.. sorry my love.. hmmm.. maybe i give myself too much pressure and not confident enoug to set up a family. sometime i think u are being forced to marry me, not having conifident in myself. hmm.. haiz.. a bit blur, very tired. but one thing is 4 true i do love you, u are important to me

foods that me and my mum ate yesterday.. lol

that's my mum.. she driving double deck bus no 13!!

I’m so bore. -_- boring..
Nothing to do at home.
Waiting for my line to connect back as soon as possible.
Make a few calls. hmm..
Was updated on stuff lol.
Yea, was invited to her baby 1 month on 22 nov.
dots -_-'' really on time when people know when you going to take pay
she sure damn on time call or msg to ask when will return her money.
Thought I didn’t contact her she will just call my friend
and ask about my no or those shit.

yea. Went orchard with my mum,
had our lunch at center-point.
Ha, we had Thai buffet hmm..
taste not really that nice.
Hmm wont want to go for the second time
rather go parkway parade there to have my Thai food,
the food there are more nicer.
Bought myself a dress from cotton on it cost me $24.95.
Hmm.. thinking went my stomach getting each day
this dress will help me. Lol.

Don feel like buying any t-shirt and jean for the time being
no use of buying that.

I’m going to do my passport tomorrow,
going back to Malaysia next week to visit my grandma,
heard that she had a bad fell recently,
some more getting older hais.
Never get the chance having grandma by my side taking care.

Hmm...
Feeling unstable recently, I mean my mood.
Keep having the feeling of throwing temper on people
but I have to keep control it,
will feel like crying out sometimes
even feel more and more stress each day thinking this and that problem.

5 nov08
i'm just getting more moody each day now and then.
been spending my time with ah nei.
been staying over at his house for about 4days already.
it's time to go back home.
i miss my room and everything
but not the people there of cos. ha.

just resign from my work last thursday.
yeah.. got to restart to find a new job again.
hais. feel regert about quitting my job.
hmm.. the people are nice just maybe i cant cope with the job there.

just wanna be alone now..
feel that there lots of things that i didnt think off.
mainly is all about money. hais.
it's really giving me a big headach throught all this time.
secondary i think is about my studies..
no money to studies eveything don go smoothly as think man.
exam coming think i got wait for another time to take my exam.
got to study real hard this time, since i not working.
feel so weak recently keep feel giddy and vommitng etc.
gonna see doctor soon due to some reason hais.