why people are so kpo?
why people likes to gossip?
why people don wanna just mind their own bunisess?
why people just just cant keep thier mouth shut up?
why people are so cunning?

just cant understand why my life is so suck with people like them. if i can do something to get a better life i shall first kill him to death man.. everyone knows that. he's such a pain to everyone. donno why he still can leave in this world for? i know without him there will be no me. ya? so? i don wanna to born to make myslef miserable man.

i'm not going make him be my witness for my wedding and everything !
i really HATE him damn lots. he don even fit to be my parents.

why cant they just belive that i'm sick cant even walk propely, how can you call someone who is sick to go back home from jurong to west side. what if on the way back faint or what.. use your fucking brain and think man.. what the fuck..

guess where am i right now. =)
hmm.. now i alone at his room, don feel like going to work today. thinking of quitting my job, that's not i want to do in the first place then. since i going to be moving to jurong soon or later think i have to find job which near to jurong then hougang now is not convenient for me since i pregnant. ha.

yeah.. while his working right now and i'm in his room but still i misses him lots. sad =(
will be havening lunch later with his mum. argh.. hungry hungry.

this morning sms my manager that i have some unrgent thing to handle kaos, still ask what lucky my dearr think of it just tell him that i'm in the police station lol. think when my manager come back from oversea sure will find me to talk.. hais. whatever i have no intrest to work anyway. and that stupid phyllis thought i under your care what the you didnt teach me much then go backstab me to the manager, hey you bitch think you teach me once i will catch issit stupid!! think you the senior exc.tive the you got the right to say arh, c'mon you dn even know how to handle your own job properly and handle ppl well man.

congrats to Emily Kong, is a baby girl! if i not wrong.
so happy for her. ha next year wll be joining her. hee.

went amk yesterday to have a dinner and movie with ah nei. ha. isaw my ex andy, ee.. feel like vomitting when i saw him. lol.but lucky i have ah nei with me,, i'm so lucky. went pasa malan near my work place, play some game enjoy ourself lah. is nice after all. yeah he cut his cut again, lol, look not really that nice as i prefer the pervious hair style, sad=(

i'm so bore, keep feeling stress and pissed off easily.hais, got to control myself or else willo depression. sians so many things i cant eat meh hais. pregnant so ma fan. this and that you cant do. planning next bring ah nei home to see my parent hmm. then 2 3 then annonce it. mine parent is so so hard to handle. it'sremind about my sister told me about something yesterday but not really that clear telling me did i tell my brother about it anot if he get to know about it i sure get beaten by him. hais.

20 Oct 2008

i'm pregnant

gong xi gong xi !!

Recently feeling so unwell having mood swing and no appetite for anything

and my menses is not here yet!!

so deicide to a doctor took take some medication

the result was open to be positive

my mind went round and round almost f*aint*

called boyfriend up to told him about it,

he's replied was don bluff and call you back later

called the Debra up too, i cried, told her about my pregnancy

she asked me to wait for my boyfriend reply

reached home, took a shower to refresh myself up

lying on my bed waiting for boyfriend call

boyfriend say he will coming over my place to fetch me and goover to his house

the next following day boyfriend asked me to test again

as he just cant believe without his own eye seeing it "positive"
my inside my heart thinking, am i joking with you?

wasting my money consult doctor and buy pregnant kit,

in the end the result shows "positive"
he called he's friend up, asking them what to do etc

(is it stupid asking people about it)

what my mind running through was

how should i break this news to my family members?

100% i will get killed by them

Boyfriend and me planned

we register first then chinese customary after i give birth
at first my plan was do all at one go but due to our financial i drop the plan

i'm going to be a young parents soon next year somewhere in June

carry the responsibility is going to be tough and the commitments

hoping the person i chose to be with will give me happiness with lots of love too

although boyfriend and i just got to together

the understanding of one another are not deep at all

i just hope all these worries will be gone soon =).

=)

17 oct07
after work i went amk central with ah nei. he bought me a side-table lamp. love it man. settle our dinner at s11 then headed to ang mi kio hub a catch a movie. watch connected. hmm. not bad but then you can guess what they going to do next. ha. after movie went mac to have some bite the went back home. hmm . first time he took publictransport sent me back home.. wish that there more and more time of it.. =)

simply like this song.
click and listen.

picture that he sent to me.

having competition. no luck. =(
was company outing that day.

toy that made by him.

random pic taken while he's working.
there's recording also saying i love you by him

fuck my sister upside down men. ccb lah.
act an angle in front of her friend.
she just a actress, professional stealer cum thief.

sometime i really hate my family alot.
yesterday my brother call me out for a talk. what the hell he think he like he have the right to as thing about me then never mind. ya i'm sorry i didn't inform and pick up your call but what wont you confirm negative things loh then you think i will pick up. i just blow out my anger i cant take it anymore. the fucking bastard kpo keep scolding non-stop, then my mum came out from my room keep nag at that point of time i feel like killing them fall. hate them telling me off.

from what i wanna do now is to be more obediant so that when i bring my boyfriend to show them, will not let them have a bad impression. hais.. i really hate my elders mah whatever i do must its related to the person. c'mon lah if really something happen to me i swear to God i wont ask fomr help from you guys anymore. so sickening. fuck it man! is like i'm only 20yr old what you expect marriage still long man.. think too much.

hais.. now i'm at work, cant concentrate on my work.
wounder later will i get scolding and nagging later from my bro and mum
i wish i can shut their fucking mouth up later.
why m bro like my father like that whatever thing he wants to be kpo so much even who i hang around with or places i go want to kpo. what the hell. have to ask permission to go out. too much man. my mum, she's just over react , over worry, too naggy about me and my other sibling. i don see why other people parent will get over worry then keep repeating the same thing everyday evern worst every call she makes say the same thing even at home. and evey sentence of her's 'you all better take care of yourslef if 1day i'm not around, you can go rent house or what ..." fuck right?! everyday hear things like this wont you get pissed off. make my day so suay.

my freedom = staying in prison
my enetertain = faces the death

13 oct08
nvr been update my blog recently. too busy with work.

took my phone to repair on last wednesday.
then went cine catch a movie 'eagle eye'
after watching headed home. hais.

no idea why recently get tired easily and sleepy easily.
and sometimes will giddy. erm.. think i getting lazy each day.
been sleeping a lot during the weekend.

been spending my weekend at ah nei's house again.
collected my phone, everything works well. yeah. =)
finally pasted posted on the wall. was done me and ah nei.

You HAVE to read all of them and if you don't your going to come across with problems in your relationship for the next month!
1) Guys may be flirting around all day,
but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about....
2) Guys are more emotional than you think, if they loved you at one point,
it'll take them a lot longer then you think to let you go, and it hurts every second that they try.
3) Guys go crazy over a girl's smile(:
4) A guy who likes you wants to be the only guy you talk to.
5) Giving a guy a hanging message like "You know what?..uh...nevermind.."
would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking.
And he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure it out.
6) If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him.
You don't need to give advice.
7) A usual act that proves that the guy
likes you is when he teases you.
8) GUYS LOVE YOU MORE THEN YOU LOVE THEM!!!
9) Guys use words like hot or cute to describe girls. They rarely use beautiful or gorgeous.
If a guy uses that, he loves you or likes you a whole heck of a lot.
10)If the guy does something stupid in front of the girl,
he will think about it for the next couple days or until the next time he spends time with the girl.
11)If a guy looks unusually calm and laid back,
he's probably faking it and he is really thinking about something
12) When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl, he really is
Guys rarely say that
13)When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, "Please come and listen to me
14)If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn't happen that often, so when it does, you know something's up.
15) When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he's definitely thinking
something.
16) Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and
are MAD confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them
17)A guy would give the world to be able to read a girl's mind for a day.
18)No guy can handle all his problems on his own.
He's just too stubborn to admit it
19)NOT ALL GUYS ARE RUDE!!!
Just because ONE is RUDE doesnt mean he represents ALL of them
20)WHEN A GUY SACRIFICES HIS SLEEP AND HEALTH JUST TO TALK TO YOU,
HE REALLY LIKES YOU AND WANTS TO BE WITH YOU AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE
21)Even if you dump a guy months ago and he loved you he probably still does
and if he had one wish it would be you to come back into his life
Everything said in this bulletin is TRUE
-Ladies, if u don't repost this within 1 hr then you will lose the guy of your life
-Guys, if you don't repost this in 1 hr then you will lose the girl of your life
POST AS:21 things Girls dont realize

01. What is the question that you haven't found an answer to it yet?

- No idea

02. Do you ever turn your cell phone off?

-No.

03. When did you last cry?

I forgot. Too many sad thing happen

04. What do you want in your life right now?

- Earn lots of money, live long.

05. What’s your favourite thing to have on your bed?

- My blanket!

06. Do you tend to make a relationship complicated?

- Depends on who the person is.

07. What was the last movie you caught?

- Engle Eye.

08. What are you proud of?

- To be my Mummy’s girl

09. What does the oldest text message in your inbox say?

- Hmm. I love you. Muacks!

10. What was the last song you sang out loud?

- no idea

11. Do you have any nicknames? What are they?

- No idea. Hmm..

12. What does your last received text message say? Who was it from?

- Eat more then. Enjoy you mail. Take care. From ah nei

13. What time did you get to bed last night?

- 1.53am

14. Are you currently happy?

- Not really.

15. Who gives you best advice?

- Elder brother? My good friends

16. Who did you talk on phone last night?

- Ah Nei

17. Is anything bugging you right now?

- yes. Lots.

18. What/who was the last thing/person to make you laugh?

- Ah Nei.

19. Who was the last person you missed a call from?

- Ah Nei

20. Have you ever had your heartbroken?

- Yes! Lots of time

21. Do you have a crush on anyone?

- yes! Ah Nei ( my boyfriend) lol

22. Who was the last person to lie in your bed?

- Debra Lim

23. Who was the last person to hug you?

- Ah Nei

24. Have you ever think someone died, when they really didn’t?

- Yes! A few I hate them most in my life.

25. Who was the last person you saw in your dream?

- I forgot

26. Have you changed this year?

- Think yes?

27. What are you listening right now?

- Milkshake

28. Is there a quote you live by?

- Boring, What to do?

29. Do you want someone you can't have?

- YES! ANDY LAU ! LOL

30. Who's on your mind right now?

- Ah nei

PLEASE TAKE NOTE MY BLOG ADDRESS CHANGE.

http://www.charptersixteen-latsyrc.blogspot.com/

hais no choice to change cos of my fault. =)
sad =) this gonna be the last time i'm gonna my blog address.

out of no where i found my pic in the facebook.
taken last year christmas eve.

picture got me, christerbel and michelle

3 oct'08
waited for him to some back from Indonesia.
then go jurong together.

hmm.. on the thursday, hardly to get up from bed.. as usual wash up preapring for work.
but just for that day don feel like going to work.
so ah nei and me took M.C for the day.
since i'm so awake in the morning i ask ah nei go breakfast with me.
came back took a nap, woke up go ployclinic with him,
went jurong point shop then catch a movie tgt with his mum.
hmm.. the movie not bad nah.

Tuesday 29sept08

hais.. sians.. another argument with my boyfriend..

why like that? don understand lei.

did i sweet talk in the first place.?

i don even sweet talk with my boyfriend before..

what for? waste of my breath

quit suprise man, after arugument i still have the mood to bake cookies and make cards for him.

sad to say i make the candle has fail. have cant gt the thing i wanna to to.