Now I’m 15 weeks month pregnant.
I can see my baby head, hands and legs and the heart beat.
Oh my god, didn’t expect is so fast, is going to 4 months.
By next month I suppose should be able to know the gender.
When I first saw the baby I feel kinda happy and somehow pressure,
lots of thing just when through my mind as the person was scanning.
Although I’m shouldn’t have this feeling and thoughts but just come cross me.
Have to bring ah nei home soon.. As I shouldn’t drag anymore..

This is my playmate for about 2week plus.
he's name is Boston. 4months old.
he damn cute and obedient. =)
got to know new friends during he's stay at my place. lol.
Miss him so much..

MARRY X'MAS TO ALL OF MY FRIENDS !!

spent my christmas eve and chirstmas with my boyfriend at home.
no place to go anyway so rather stay at home watch t.v.

Finally I found a job at LTA as finance assistant for 4 months contract base,
Actually I have another job on pending at jurong ship yacht,
but I have to go through a second interview on 30 dec,
thinking of asking them to bring forward the interview day as I might have more chances.
hope to get this job as this have a better pay etc. lol.

I really damn disappointed with my boyfriend recently.
Just promised me and will stop but he didnt do it.
wanna you to know whatever you promise you should keep it.
think you forgot or what, can say partly is my fault didnt stop you.
i know you did it for the good, but is too risking. hmm..
from this i really hope we can learn our lesson and to grow together. =)

More things to settle for me and my boyfriend..
There debts have to pay off before our baby is born.
Then got to buy beds, wedding ring some furniture for us.
beside that there are check-up fees, bills, insurance etc.

There this particular person Mr Edmund Lee,
Please don be so Kpo with my personal stuff, studies, and my personal life!!!
Who you think you are and you don have to right to come interfere,
So what if you are who or whatever is not you business and don have the right
to say anything to me or not even about my boyfriend.
You are just irritating, KPO, so calculative, sickening and whatever,
and you are not man with your words !!
Is non of your concern are who I marrying to, why I’m pregnant,
Oh My God !! worst you even wanna know when is my last menses,
C’mon man is to fucking much man. think better go sick a doctor man !!
My father didn’t even ask me that who are you to ask.
Whatever, you are just a sicko!! And I know why you become like this. Ha!
I wonder how your wife tolerate you, but at least she did something right !
ya serve you right for letting her for beating and scolding you. Ha.

Recently I have some arguments with someone cos of money issus
as I really to pay off to my other friend as I have own this friend of mine for quit long.

1. Someone..
I been asking back the money for quit sometimes as I told you I need it.
Then you keep lying to me say wait for M to return you.
But what is it related? I know you help me in somehow not to tell M the money is mine.
But then I just help you to pay off first but not to M.
but you lie to me as I ask M about it. You say the money is to lent M but is not.
What’s this. Lucky I and M have make it clear. Thanks anyway for helping me.

2. This friend of mine..
Thanks for those days you lent me the money.
All along I just cant figure the money why I own you so much, whatever now.
Ya, I know I own you that fucking long, but you will just say I’m disappointed in you,
you will gt your retribution, just treat it as I give it to beggar.. Dots.
Thanks for saying that to me. Whatever, I don mind what you say
cos you even say something more worst then this better.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME !!
16 Decmeber 2008

Firstly wishes myself
Happy 20th birthday !!!

did not plan anything for this year
why ? i'm broke right now
there's lots of thing i have to save up for

met up with boyfriend at bugis
had lunch come dinner together then arcade
and spent a night over at boyfriend's place =)

didn’t have a good sleep for the past few days.
Only get to sleep in the middle of 3 to 4 plus am.
It so annoying, when I get to sleep but the time isit right for me to do so.

Had my lurch with my mum today at my near coffee, when to buy 4D after that.
Then went back home to search for job then took a nap then.
Supposedly to go for interview but I post it tomorrow, as I over slept and rain heavy here.
The whole was like packing my room -_-”
And at the same time was helping ah nei to search and apply something.

**What the hell helping to do something still get scolding from you,
Why not you come and do it yourself since I doesn’t know how to use the com.
Crazy man, oh please my internet is so lag then.. And you didn’t give me all the details.

I know for myself, haven been working for about 1 month plus.
But I’m searching.. At least I did make the first step,
I went to a few interview and agency for the pass few week. What to do?
People don want to hire me, and it take time to be short listed. Hais.

Recently been thinking a lot of thing. I donno I make the right decision anot.
Firstly I know doesn’t mean I’m pregnant I must get into marry. I know that.
But my family will kill me if I come to this situation.
But I have think a lot about what might or may happen in future,
And is this the correct path or this is what I want.
I’m not confuse, just want to make the right decision for myself and with no regrets.

Secondly I have been neglecting on my studies when I started this relationship.
Got to get back to track in order to complete my studies by end of next year.
By then it will be more harder for me to do so,
As I have to take care of my baby and got to work,
but as long as I have the determination should able to complete.

Thirdly my financial is damn not stable as I don have any income now,
I only spent less than 20 buck per weeks, not including transport fees.
Everything need money now, don mention about daily expenses,
For my monthly check-up, school fee, phone bill, debts..
All this I cant imagine how am I going to cope with it. What to do? I ask for it.

my internet is so lag man!! fuck it!

counting to 1 more week to my birthday. 16 Dec Tuesday
i'm gonna turn 20 soon =(

There will be no celebration = no money + no job + preganat

finally i get to play with the toy as i keep saying i wanna do.

spented 4 to 5 hour playing with his toy.

i did the head, arm and leg then ah nei do the body and the weapon.

only gt to sleep at 4plus then.. i'm quit awake then..

went cine for karaok session with ah nei, ivan and his gf.

didn't get to enjoy as i don have the mood and kinda tired to sing.

headed to beauty world shopping center for mac.

reached jurong about 5plus then get to back around 6am. quit a tiring day. hmm..

Happy belated 4month.. =)

Congarts to you.. finally got yourslef a job.. hmm.. damn lucky..
gonna take up the part-time job at michelle office bah.. better than don have now.. hais.

slacking and slacking here and there.. so bore.. hais.
prices up going up. think when my baby is born i'm going to die soon. lol..

yesterday went out with my mum. had our lunch together at yck inter-change.
headed to levender to make my passport. hmm.. i don like the photo i taken for my passport cos i look so ugly and i didnt drawn my eyebrown.. oh my gosh..
after doing my passport headed back to hougang to get my hair trim.
end of the day i got myself one skirt is cost only 10dollar, got it from this fashion. hee.

i'm so bore right now. lol.

gonna meet ah nei tmr again. hee.. has been together for 4 months liao.
what should i do? been making things for him lately.. hope he really will appreciate mine thoughts.

This is how he look when he playing game. lol.. =)
been playing this game for the pass few days.. http://www.highstreet5.com.sg/
is a dancing game. thought is kinda lame but still fun to play..

-next appointment date 30 dec.. got to save up money for my check
-have to faster find the 50buck to pay off to doris..