another day me staying at home. is a good thing or a bad thing huh? sianz. feel so lost out of sudden. no idea. -_-''? am i regreting or wad? suddenly think back did i make the right choice? ha! everybody was not looking gd in this relationship. Now i know how doris feel, when doris & alex will together, starting i keep telling doris i don look gd in thier relationship. age gap too big & others thing also. haiz. sick and tired, putting a mask. argh.. forget. don feel like talking about it. Really wanna thanx zen for his time chatting with me for few hour on 31june(sat,morning). he's someone understand me well, the first person i met that make me cry when i say all my things out. so comfortable when talking to him. others may think i'm still playing but he understand why. Only can say is just the surface not the inner side of me. 'i need you, zen, so down right now.' haiz. hope tommorrow my interview will pass. can start work next week.