few more days to 14 feb .. ........
i don have the mood to celebrate or whatever..
just wanna have a peaceful time by my own.
whenever i face someone i have to put a mask on ...
its getting thicker and thicker each day when i put on..
My Mind cant Stop Thinking of what now & going to happen me in future.

Recently i cant put myself into this relationship more and more anymore.
Maybe cause of Stress and Pressure recently given by people around me.
is not that i donno how to handle all those thingy but non-of them wanna giving way
and spare a thought for me as i been pushing here and there.
yeah.. i may not handle certain things well then why you guys ask to do so..
trying to help up or being nice in the end what i get.. what the hell .. =)

why both side just cant compremise ?
i rather move out alone, staying on my own, grow my baby on my own?
i know it will be very hard for me but at least i much more happier than now.
From the day i know i'm pregnant i know things will not go smoothly ..
about my marriage i cant even think more further than that now,
as there lot of things just pop up for me and him to handle and face ..
Hais .. i never find myself happy before ..
i don mean when i'm in this relationship as when i'm pregnant ..
whenever i'm trying to be myself, sure there someone said something ..
i'm try to make you guys happy but i now i don think i have too,
think my condition is getting bad to worst almost everyday thinking this and that
for you guys.. and now you see the time i haven get in my bed.. what the hell.