Finally I receive it.
Waited almost more that a month.
Yes, is more than a month.

Is all about what he think about us.
Whatever is all past.
What really meant now is money that really that I need.

Almost give up on some stuff.
I felt damn pressure and depress most of the time.
I’m not able to think properly and
Concentrate on my work where by I keep making mistakes.
I told myself once I cant make any more mistake
But in the end. Hais.
I hate myself being like this.
Is not me anymore !!

When he return I donno will it still the same or?
Dare not think,
will it remain the same as before?

When I think back lots of things, it’s damn reality.
Reality makes me scare, especially future.

One day passes the other.
Find it meaningless.
Routine will not be the same as before.

Dislike going home.