public holiday it's over

now the time is 4 am in the morning
yet i'm not in my bed yet
waiting for husband to come back ..

i have been wasting lots of time today
slept the whole did not do any thing even cleaning the room

Mummy call me in the evening before going on holiday
=)

whatever

i not in the mood doing anything
i feel like crying
i feel like a loser sometimes even a useless person
but but but .. i cant afford to be one!!
i need to stay 100% strong