this hour i'm sure most of us already asleep..

but me, i'm still awake online chatting with my childhood friend, fb and blogging..
acutally my intension was to play games and upload photos to fb then go to sleep, but i cant because while opening files from memory card i saw some past photo taken.. (which i rather not to seen them before) it was taken by my husband and his ex-girlfriend.. (those kissing and hugging photos). Thoughs those photos taken few years back but i belive his ex was just before me. the first thing came through my mind was why could he take photo with his ex but not any single photos with me can bring her go out here and there but why not me?! in the past i did try to take photo with him, he give me reason like he's ugly dont want take photos, he dont want take photos without wearing any cloths. what a joke isnt it? hais.. i told my childhood friend about it, while chatting i felt that why could he treated his ex well but why not me? for all these year i been working hard on the relationship and family that we build up.. but why didnt i get a good treatment from him? or even change for me and our kids and why didnt he want to take photos with me or his kid? been thinking and guessing.. because our relationship for the past one year are suck.. hais.. can someone give me some advice? or i'm just thinking too much or having some post natal depression.. lols..